Who Is Lord Shiva?



In Hindu mythology Lord Shiva is considered to be one of the "Trimurti" - a triad of the supreme Gods who reign over the Devas (Gods) and the Asuras (Demons) and the entirety of the cosmos. The Trimurti consist of Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva with each symbolic of creation, preservation and destruction respectively. Brahma is the one cursed to have the least importance, Vishnu being the one with the most detailed mythology and it is Lord Shiva who is considered to be the most fearsome but shrouded in mystery and intrigue.

Compared to Brahma and Vishnu who have the look of royalty Shiva is portrayed as a singular being in deep meditation most of the time. It is said that when Shiva opens his "third eye" the whole of creation will burn, that when Shiva dances all of creation happens and that when he rides out to war none can stop him. Shrouded in ash of burnt bodies he is considered the lord of the dead with the ability to reanimate them. Veerabhadra and Kali, two very fearsome warriors are at his command and ride out to war with him. Lord Shiva is portrayed in a fearsome manner indeed, or is he?

However something is amiss and the evidence doesn't add up. Is Shiva really the fearsome warrior? Is he truly destructive or could he be something more, something other than merely the simplistic embodiment of destruction?

It seems to me that Shiva isn't really the destructive principle however he is Hinduism's ideal man. Let us see how..

Here are a few points for you to consider

  • Shiva is the only one of the three to have an abode on planet earth namely Mt.Kailash. Vishnu and Brahma live somewhere in the cosmos, Vishnu in a sea of milk in Vaikuntha and Brahma in an heavenly palace
  • Shiva married a human being (the same person twice if you consider Sati) - Parvati. Parvati had a human birth, a human father and a human story. Where do Vishnu's and Brahma's consorts Lakshmi and Saraswati come from?
  • He is the only one amongst the Trimurti to go to war as himself in a major mythological story i.e. when he goes to war against Sati's father. Brahma of course never leaves his seat and Vishnu mainly appears on Earth as one of his Avatars
  • Off the top of Shiva's head comes the river Ganges which is a river on Earth and not in the cosmos. A liquid flowing out from the top of a man's head is usually the Kundalini Shakti that has reached the Sahasrara chakra symbolic of an enlightened man
  • Shiva is not famed to have four hands or heads
  • A coiled snake around Shiva's neck that isn't trying to choke is again symbolic of an ascetic who has mastered the Kundalini. It is his friend, protector and guiding light
  • Shiva's condition on marrying Parvati was "When I'm a householder will you be my wife and when I'm an ascetic will you be an ascetic with me?" This isn't a condition a God would ask is it?
  • Nandi, a cow is Shiva's vehicle. Cows are sacred in Hindu tradition and are usually domesticated by farmers, in Shiva's case it is by Shiva the householder
  • Shiva's younger child is Ganesha - a man with the head of an elephant. The elephant is the animal that governs the Muladhara chakra and symbolizes the first stage in the journey of enlightenment. Ganesha is also the first God who is evoked in any major ceremony. It is needless to say that before attaining the "ideal spiritual being" (Shiva) it is his son who has to be prayed to first
  • During Vishnu's Kurma avatar (or the churning of the ocean saga) Shiva is asked to take the deadly poison on behalf of all of creation without which all living beings would perish. As he does so mythology has it he was about to swallow it but it is Parvati who chokes his throat and until Shiva is able to stabilize the poison in his throat. Which other of the Trimuti has had a death wish like that?
  • Shiva is worshiped in the form of a linga i.e. a male phallus - another link to his human nature
Maybe from the above points I got you to look at Shiva in a slightly different light. If Shiva is the ideal man then it is Vishnu who is the true destroyer (I imagine he has caused far more deaths through his various avatars) or the one who brings balance if you would prefer and Brahma the creator. We are now left with a void as to who might contain the destructive principle and my intuition points in the direction of Goddess(s) Durga/Kali. Together they represent the all important feminine destroyer seen in every other religion which allows for female gods. Moreover it is written that Yugas (eras) are reset by a "great flood" and the ocean is almost always feminine.

Personal Notes
  1. I'm no expert, really. This is "just" food for thought. I'm not a Hindu fanatic, hater or revivalist of anything you can think of. This is merely a blog post.
  2. Full disclosure, most of my knowledge comes from Amar Chitra Katha. I'm not claiming to be an authority of any sort


Incipt

Glory be to he who screams back at me
from birth but who abandons at death
controller contorter sweet genesis of ruth
untold lies he speaks through me

the gaping rift he cordons off
rich treasures he promises of
incipiT life for what else is there
that nature calls forth from us?

to succumb and to kneel he beckons
so the I is no longer more
everlaSting peace is in on his
grandeur scheme forever more

no respite we have to wave
our choices to make A way
to be and not to be are his alone
the flaming pit life's grandiose hole

in death he laughs for a life is wasted
or spent in the greater good of mankind
crumbs we get from the great beyond
eating, sleeping, doing, making

to save you? but you're already saved
give over body mind and soul!
and when they call your name do you obey
or is there a more wholesome way to stay?

my tiny sword now doesn't break
as his flaming sword crashes down on me
there I stAnd in his great hall
very much at his beck and call

when I turn my back I now know
that his flaming sword can pierce me No more
for if I die he dies with me
another wasted opportunity

friends we are in life till the very end
maybe for a time less than that I know not
but today we stand together, hopefully
for I am no longer tempted by death

Bane

Oh, you think darkness is your ally, but you merely adopted the dark. I was born in it, molded by it. I didn’t see the light until I was already a man. By then, it was nothing to me but blinding!

Hut! Velociraptor



There is a stream beyond which lies the curious mountain range bordering the land of lava and our own land. It occurs to me that the mountain range is fresh and has come up only recently though I feel confident (I must admit that I'll always have my doubts) that the raging lava flowing on the other side of the mountain range will never seep into this land but life has a strange way of unfolding herself. It always pleases me to notice that what was once a desert now is at least populated by grass, a stream and a few rodent like creatures here and there. Rumour has it that recently a forest has started to grow on the banks of a river (which I am yet to see with my own eyes) as well.

Someone seems to have constructed a rudimentary type of dock on the river indicative of some form of intelligent life, but I've only very rarely glimpsed the women who lives there. I've also sensed the presence of a hermit who co-habits the same river and apparently he can control the flow of its water. It is also said that he doesn't speak and can magically conjure up a boat that always keeps afloat irrespective of the river's force. From afar, he has a balding head but on getting close his face seemed to disintegrate into a blobular plasma.

Oddly, in that place where there is very little fauna there lives a lonely velociraptor. A carnivorous animal, my guess is that it feeds on any animal that might be lucky (or unlucky) to grow big enough to be spotted by it. I also wondered how a velociraptor which normally lives in a herd is populating our shared space all alone - maybe this one just wanted to be alone or is probably lost from its herd? Most velociraptors talk (as you may not know) and were considered to be amongst the most intelligent of the dinosaurs but this one strangely didn't seem to know how to speak at all.

I first encountered him (I don't know how I know that) while examining the puddle I had arrived at disoriented since it was but newly formed in that past time. As I sat up I noticed the moon in the sky and it was clearly nighttime with the ever present misty fog everywhere. Curious about my presence he came sniffing around as I tried to get up, confused as I always am on entering our land. He didn't quite know what to do with me, probably the only other creature roughly his size. I guess now that since he couldn't rightly ascertain who or what I was- friend or foe, prey or the hunter, mother or father, male or female he too seemed as disoriented as I. The only deduction I could make was that he was somehow 'made' fully formed and was not born from an egg like other velociraptors.

Initially I was a bit apprehensive of his presence since dinosaurs are supposed to be extinct and our co-presence at the same time seemed to elucidate that something was amiss. But that thought soon dissolved as I remembered where I was and how I had gotten here. I then felt what might be akin to an archaic form of kinship with the being for I realized intuitively that he too was trapped in here with me and felt an urge to reach out to the creature but he suddenly jumped back as if in horror.

To my shock I realized that I had omnisciently merged with my velociraptor friend and was able to cognitively tune in to his inner state while retaining some amount of functioning of my own. I was able to experience his sense of confusion and unsatisfied hunger coupled with his drive to kill. He was at war in himself, whether to make friends with this new creature or to dare attack it so as to procure a new source of meat.

Realizing this I too took a step back  trying to put some distance between us for if he attacked I would at least be able to dodge it. What then ensued was a game of cat and mouse with the two of us circling each other like warriors in a ring even as I could sense the palpitations of his heart as his conflicts with regard to who I was kept him from taking decisive action. Realizing that this was getting nowhere, I suddenly remembered that velociraptors could talk (as you might not know) and said a few words to him. It was only then that I understood that the poor beast was tongue tied for you see its when when spoken to that a velociraptor can really learn how to speak! It then dawned on me that empathy was the only tool I had to determine what might be going on inside him.

To this day I don't know why I did what I did or how I did it but the next thing I was aware of was that he was standing over me, his powerful legs pinning my hands down as I stared up at what seemed to be imminent death. He looked at me, engulfed by his drive to kill and survive and for a moment I sensed guilt, compassion and pity in him as he bent down to tear open my chest and feed to his heart's content.

Even as green smoke spurred out from the place in my body where the ancients reckoned one's soul to be, there was a thunderous clap and I felt her cold hands embrace me with the words clearly said out loud -  "I'll never leave you again". The grin that he had when I etched out this story to him will forever remain in my memory.

Epliogue
I know that my friend the velociraptor is still alive. Some other good acquaintances of mine, on scouting our land, told me that he was spotted there with some other creatures his own size and seemed even to be talking to them. Where there was but small grass there are now a few bamboo shoots - a place where he can feel more at home. I was even able to meet the hermit of the river who taught me a severe lesson in bracing the watery elements. There is much to learn from this strange land indeed.

Valentine's Day


It was just an everyday and after a tiring day at work I settled down comfortably on the bed. The venue was different but the place was the same - as usual. Even before I took it upon myself to get there, the destination had already arrived. The world always slows down (and in rare cases speeds up) as I wade through the path to get to the place and today was no different. Intuitively though, I had foreseen a strange sense of easiness and calm for what may or may not be a fruitful exercise in love.

The usual cantankerous racket that always proceeded my entering the place was absent, however there pervaded in that space an ominous positivity. Since positivity and negativity are both perceived only by the depraved, I decided to get closer - and there they all stood - smiling.

In a world wrought with barrenness and despair it was uncanny to see them all united and happy. A bit flummoxed, I was a tad bit distraught at seeing the abnormal but very soon I was with them, one amongst them.

The place is usually dark - as it should be, but there emanated a strange warmth in the place that previously was used as an interrogation chamber. That elusive purple sunflower that I had been wrestling with my whole life decided to show itself and from the floor brought along with it a man sized light bulb, the warmth from which was shared and welcomed by everyone. There was truth everywhere.

Not wanting to miss out on the fun my brother decided to show up! He was late as usual with  fire emanating from him as he flew down, dressed sharply in his Westwood suit. Always critical, previously a king and being one of the first ones there, he has been very cooperative and accepting of the rest of them. He watched on with the suspicious curiosity so characteristic of him and I sensed from him the same sense of urgency that I too share, not wanting to hurt my feelings though he keeps it carefully hidden.

She was present as well, elusive and mysterious as always. I must confess that I noticed her late but she didn't seem to mind - she was probably used to it. What was strange however was that she didn't share in the light that the purple flower had brought but seemed as though she was rather expecting it. I'm more or less certain now that she won't survive in too many places but that space that we all shared was permissible to her. I remember seeing her in her natural residing place though, the place where she had warned me about flight. She seemed comfortable enough there but a bit annoyed at not being payed enough attention, most likely.

"Happy Valentine's Day"


Life Of Pi: An Analytical Perspective


[Obvious warning: Might contain spoilers]

Life of Pi is a book by Yann Martel picturised in a movie by Ang Lee. I had the pleasure of seeing it one fine Sunday morning and at a superficial level, it made no 'sense'. Sure there was plenty of emotional content (carried off by some great acting), stunning visuals and a perfect 'family oriented survival story' (as expressed by Rohit Ramachandran) but the 'sense' was only apparent in Irfan Khan's final rework of the story at the very end. However, I have a personal take on it.

Why is the book titled Life Of Pi? Pi is an irrational number and might be allegorical of life in general. It could  mean that the author is implying that life in itself is irrational and no amount of planning or control can save us from the ebb and flow of its chaotic nature - much like the life of Piscine.

Piscine is showcased as a smart, sensitive boy portrayed by Suraj Sharma. He is your typical awkward teenager with the same questions and doubts as anybody else his age, but what shines through is a rich dreamy inner life (he is willing to try on multiple religions as once, has an engaging soliloquy) and a sense of individuality (he creatively changes his embarrassing name Piscine to Pi) that provides the character with a certain depth of personality. 

On a careful analysis we can see that no character other than Pi is 'fully real' in the movie. His father played by Adil Hussain symbolizes a highly polarized Logos (He was an atheist ever since his prayers to the Gods went unanswered, but was cured from his polio by western medicine. He is also shown to have a purely  rational attitude and only an implied emotional side) whereas his mother played by Tabu embodied the principle of Eros (She had close ties with her religious roots as a means of holding onto her family from who she was estranged as they believed she had married beneath  her - to a zookeeper. She is also shown to have an emotional side and only an implied rational side). At the start of the movie, Pi is closer to his mother and rather a bit intimidated by his father indicative that Pi was tending towards a more feeling orientated way of life - but he was in for a shock. This dreamy boy's friendly curiosity towards Richard Parker (the tiger) was broken when his father demonstrated to Pi Richard Parker's real nature when he fed a live goat to the tiger and the tiger's ferocity shocked a young Pi. His father instructed him that what he saw in the tiger's eyes was just his own emotions being reflected back at him. 

As is the case with many such rude encounters with reality, when one's developing function is shockingly proved to be 'wrong' or 'useless', the ego pushes this function back into the unconscious from where it came. This is evident from the statement that Pi entered a sense of meaningless existence where school and even swimming became empty and he simply went through the motions of the day. His intuition was still functioning though as he continued exploring religion but with a lack of feeling as all his endeavours lacked any value, nor was his psyche vast or experienced enough to bring out the thinking function - to make him similar to his father. What could have been his saving grace then was the dancer who had caught his fancy. There again we see his intuition hard at work when he is able to understand what the dancer's steps symbolizes, he   approaches her using the only functional orientation he knows - intuition (he asks her what a particular mudra meant, doesn't bring her flowers-sensation, write her a poem-feeling or create an elaborate plan to woo her-thinking). Again, typical of adolescent love, it didn't last long as Pi was to move to Canada with his family.

The story progresses with his ship sinking in the sea and the (supposed) death of every human other than himself. He finally finds himself on a lifeboat with 5 animals - a zebra, a monkey, a hyena, a tiger and a rat. In Pi's altered version of the story the zebra was a sailor, the monkey his mother, the hyena a cook and finally the tiger was himself. Two clues that tell us that the animals are  anthropomorphic representations of humans is when the Japanese investigator points out that 'Bananas don't float' and other being the fact that the tiger stayed hidden under the tarpaulin of the boat, sharing the same space as the hyena for far too long than naturally possible. Of course this does add merit to Pi's final version 'real' version of the story, but lets just assume that there is more.

First to reach the boat is the Zebra, a dull, harmless, herbivorous animal. The zebra represents the state in which Pi is while initially facing this challenge. Like the zebra he too is gentle, does no harm and is more or less a dullard. The black and white stripes on the zebra represent his confused state with regard to spirituality (and his sexuality to some extent) and also the black and white mentality of someone who's cognitive strengths are still archaic and undeveloped.

Second on the boat is the orange monkey representative of Pi's Eros picked up from his mother. As pointed out by the Japanese investigator the monkey floated onto the lifeboat, on bananas. In popular cultural bananas symbolize the male phallus and like all things dead, dead phalluses float. It is interesting that the monkey should be called 'orange' juice with orange being the colour of the Swadhisthana chakra - the chakra of emotion and/or the mother. Another pointer is in the scene just before the ship sinking when Pi's father sedates the animals. During that scene Pi is seen talking to orange juice and innocently and asks his father why the animals need to be sedated to which his father replies that sea-sickness is bad and that he doesn't want to clean up after the journey. It again emphasizes his fathers (the principle of Logo's) distaste for everything 'emotional' comparing it to vomit, another blow to Pi's psyche, the balance to which can only be restored by a major upheaval, liking the sinking of his ship that could connect him back to his feeling function.

The third animal on the boat is the hyena and is a stereotypical symbol of cunning. On looking at cunning we can see that it is analogous of crooked thinking. It isn't like the self aggrandizing idealistic thinking of a hero or a knight nor is it strategically superior like that of a general in a war zone. Cunning is selfish thinking and focuses only on the survival of the individual at all costs. Here we see that the hyena first kills the zebra, symbolic of the death of his innocence and secondly the monkey, his realization that he can't depend on his mother to magically save him (she had done so before a couple of times before in the movie) anymore and is on his own with his cleverness. It also portrays the fumbling start to his thinking function which he desperately needs in order to survive alone. However, much more than mere cleverness is needed to survive the hardships of the dark blue ocean.

Finally, in a sudden fit of hunger the tiger (Richard Parker) jumps out from under the tarpaulin and kills the hyena - the birth of something new - his inner warrior! An interesting part about the tiger is that it was initially called Thirsty but later gets humanized to Richard Parker (in modern city life a man's true warrior spirit is largely repressed and never let out in the raw from that nature intended it to be, leading a variety of neurosis - from aggression to rape) something that Pi laughed about. Also, even before the zebra, Pi initially sees Richard Parker try to get onto the boat (symbolic that he initially rejects his warrior) but hits him with his oar to push him away but Richard Parker gets on the boat anyway (probably while Pi was asleep sometime). By now its pretty certain that the tarpaulin represents all that is unconscious in him and the exposed part of the boat everything that he knows. 

As the story progresses, we see Pi getting closer to the tiger and finding out that living FOR the tiger is what kept him alive i.e. his drive to keep alive the warrior archetype in him. We then see that the final animal to die in the face of his warrior is the rat. The rat almost always symbolizes wisdom since it is the mammal closest to the earth. If the lion is the king of the jungle then the elephant is always the priest of the jungle (in both African and Indian lore) but the only animal that an elephant is afraid off is the rat (and the snake, but that is a whole different story in itself - technically because elephants can't see little things well) symbolized in Indian mythology as Ganesha's (he has the head of an elephant) vehicle after being 'tamed' by him. In the movie, the death of the rat symbolizes Pi's total surrender to his warrior (he henceforth does what it takes, eats non-veg and goes against everything his religions have taught him (his ego defenses still being active though - when he thanks Lord Vishnu for appearing as a fish than bereave himself for eating non-vegetarian food)) when he personally throws the rat into the tiger's mouth. What then proceeds as a typical survival movie, but with a couple of stopovers.

There is one surreal scene where the ocean is extraordinarily and unrealistically calm and the surface is filled with jellyfish and a majestic whale makes a leap out of water. Visual stunning, this scene is a stereotypical archetypal dream. Water and the ocean have always represented the unconscious and the stillness of it implies a closeness to the unconscious that the ego has achieved than never before (nothing like being isolated on a boat in the middle of nowhere to get 'in touch' with oneself). Creatures like fishes and jellyfishes also represent content that are half inside-half outside - psychological content that the dreamer is 'almost' aware of - in the case of Pi his merger with his warrior. The whale is also symbolic of a 'big dream' and always shows itself when the unconscious is going to show one the wisdom of the ages (the rat being wisdom of the current time - a collective wisdom specific to one's culture) and of mankind in general - of intuition and creativity. If you remember closely, Richard Parker barely reacts to these beings almost as if he knows and accepts them but it is us the viewer and Pi himself who is amazed by them!

Following the calm, there is always the storm. Again a salute to the visual effects which captures in every detail the fury that mother nature can unleash - and it is here that Pi and Richard Parker are truly one, where their physical states are shown to be fully synchronized. The most interesting aspect of the movie however occurs after the storm.

Richard Parker and Pi find themselves on a strange island. The island is a paradise with no natural predators but having an overabundance of a curious animal - meerkats! Meerkats in dreams and active imagination usually imply 'watchful wisdom'. Being close to the rodent family, they again symbolize wisdom - but with a catch. As the movie then shows us, the island itself is carnivorous and devours its inhabitants at night while providing them life giving nourishment by day. Pi also finds a fruit on a tree, inside which he finds a tooth which he thinks is of a sailor who was trapped there before. Curiously however the tooth is a wisdom tooth, judging from its size and sturdiness. We also see that Richard Parker has an instinct about the island and runs away at night. Pi later explains that nobody else has seen this island nor is it on any map. What might this numinous island represent?

The clue in answering the question is in the final long-shot of the island where it is shown to be shaped like a human being - I'd conclude that it is the archetype of The Self. Characteristic of the self, the island provides the ego eternal rest. Jung points out that an ego that has assimilated the Self knows no past of future but exists simply in the everythingness of its totality. It is the prized archetype that all religions aim to reach and THE archetype from which all other archetypes are branched out from. But the catch with the assimilation of the Self is stagnation in all forms - physical, mental, emotional and spiritual - leading to one's death. The ego can completely and truly absolve itself into the Self when it has no further desires to be in this world and enter into complete samadhi - something that Pi has no idea about. Thus we see that the island nourishes, but at the same time devours everyone that it encounters, symbolic of dying while being alive - something that only saints aspire to be. Furthermore Richard Parker is extremely apprehensive of the dark side of the Self as the warrior is an archetype that connects one completely and totally to LIFE!

Finally as Pi and Richard Parker's journey reaches an end and they land on the Mexican shore, Richard Parker is shown to run away into the jungle without looking back. On reaching the shore we again see Pi's feeling function erupt as he longs for a final goodbye from Richard Parker but the warrior is not one to do so.  Jung famously stated that "Sentimentality is the superstructure erected upon brutality" here Pi's ego being sentimental but his archetypal opposite - the warrior continuing its brutality, without looking back and braving forwards by living free in the jungle. The best way to say goodbye to the warrior is not to say goodbye at all... 

Personal Notes
1) Just like all such interpretations, it could just be an over interpretation. As with all art it could be meaningful expression of something the artist wishes to convey to the world, or that which grips the artist and has to be expressed as a communication from the unconscious or a big fat lying joke
2) Yann Martel spent significant time in India and studied philosophy, so some of the observations in this interpretation might be justified
3) This is based purely from the movie, I have read only about 10 pages of the book
4) I really really miss using this word from my childhood, pissing. Its all 'restroom', 'men's room' or the 'laterine' now. PISSSING! There I said it out loud, now say it out loud again, for me. Pissing!!
5) I've seen the movie only once and there might be factual errors. Please do point them out if any!
6) The dream interpretation of the animals are based on my understanding of various schools and hence may not match with any particular school of dreams. Personally however I am closest to the Jungian school.

Anima - I

[Unedited, unabridged, that was the deal]
[This is not poetry, this is communication. I did not write this]

Dearest bride to be, now everlast
born of the same womb, till death do us apart
Shine you now in the pale moonlight,
our souls entwined, our pain, aghast

Like the neverwinter, the icy chill
of distant lands from lonely window sills,
Persephone or Sita, the soul of nigredal night,
you taunt and scream for me to come out

Fight for me beloved, fight for me my love!
for heaven's fury has leant thou a blow
For he who crawls and he who screams,
the shadow's curse shall befall thee!

Swim with me in the deep dark water,
of mermaids and fishes and paths beyonder
Nigredo crawls, nigredo screams,
we run with you, run to the sea

Majestic queen always unknown,
why do you play games with me, oh goddess home?
I shall play with you, play with you forever,
for you and I we're in this together

Like a prayer you sing to me,
when I'm the one who wants you more
Oh little boy, when will you grow up
for I've waited, waited too long

Kiss me, embrace me and then let me go
for you and I are already so
I am you for we are one,
yet coiled like the snakes of caduceus

If words don't satiate but they will have to do,
to tell you goodbye oh so soon.
With sadness I wish you the best
but you hold me close as I sink in your chest

Are we in love? Oh who are you?
I thought I knew, now I don't want you
Get away filthy scum, your hands are dirty!
for I'm still waiting for the kingdom come

Death, death! He wants me, he wants me,
only you oh noble one can even save me
Carry me, whisk me away,
so the evil shadow doesn't catch us

But who are you? Are you my child?
You are so different now, have we met before?
I was alone and confused, but now you're here
You make me think, the haze disappears

Eternal mystery you are to me boy,
am I your mother or your love child?
I hate you and I love you, for you are a man
and I am a cowardly princess from a far away land

We'll build a house, we'll burn some sticks,
you pray for me, watch over me until I undress
But something comes over you as the night falls,
I fear not if the shadow walks through these halls

There is a stillness between us, nature's bond
to keep us apart for shallow beings we are
Build a bridge, build a bridge now!
Before its too late before you're too old!

Oh my old man, we're so alike,
you and I are one, we always were one
I am blind, I can never see,
I think a little... so sorry, let me be

I regress now back to my nascent state,
I'll pray for you, keep away the goddess of hate
Sleep my child for tomorrow, you and I
will be together again, for ever more...